But I told her why we just can’t make it
I want you still but just can’t take it
The time has come we oughta break it
Someone has to pay the price
Oh oh oh, oh oh oh
Oh oh oh, oh oh oh
It’s true, it’s true
I think of times we were together
As time went on it seemed forever
But times have changed
Now things are better
Someone had to pay the price
Here Today, Gone Tomorrow. Rocket to Russia, Ramones, 1977
It’s been a rather rough few weeks for me in the personal department, on so many levels. From medical scares to the end of a relationship, it’s been bumpier than a ride on the 7.
The hardest part of the ride was having to end the relationship I was in for the past 3-4 years. It didn’t end in the best of ways - a row right before and during Thanksgiving weekend isn’t necessarily the best way to end - but it did make me realize that most relationships at this stage in life, no matter how idealistic or wishy-washy it might be, end. I’m not going to blame her completely for what happened - I share some of the fault too, but when one doesn’t reciprocate the feelings you have for them in a relationship, it becomes insanely one-sided and abusive. Ending it, however, was a mutual decision when we came to understand that it wasn’t going to work out. Don’t get me wrong, I’ll remember the moments I spent with her - she was the first one, and for three years to boot. I hold her in high regard, and wish her the best in life.
I’ve been trying to manage through all of this, and so far, I am going to say that it’s been alright. I have been reading much more often than usual, and school, despite having a hostile relationship with a few of my teachers, has helped as well. Playing soccer more often than usual (despite some warnings) has helped a little bit (at least when I’m not getting hit in the face with a ball while trying to make a save).
I’ve also recently taken up programming for Mac OS X, as well as cooking. Things will get better, eventually. Nathaniel Greene once said “We fight, get beaten, rise, and fight again.” The same will (hopefully) apply here. Yeah, it’s been tough, and I’ve felt beaten at times. But, one has to rise and keep on fighting in life, and I’m sure that I’ll be at that stage soon. For now, I just need a break. And for people to understand me in the meantime.
Robert Bacon’s 8 bit Super Mario Verison of the NYC Subway Map
i swear they should use these instead of the ones in the subway
Someone get me the 24 x 32 poster for Christmas!